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♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 3:41 PM
ツ Love
Sorry for the lack of post :D I'm still waiting on my dearest designer Angela to give me a completed blog skin. :S Of coz my life hasn't been all that exciting either. If you've got me on facebook and am close enough to me you'd probably see the ultrasound pictures of my Sophie dearest on there. Okayy let me recap, as far as exciting goes, we went to ballarat one weekend. (I seriously don't even remember which weekend it was) :S We stayed in a caravan park with Ants dad, gf n Kyle. He's a funny man. Soooo freaking similiar to Ant even though they haven't seen or lived with each other for ages. Temprement, mood, mannerism, everything (the arrogance, laziness, moodiness and grumpiness etc), should I say thank god to genetics or bad luck buddy, I wonder. Anywho, someone pls remind me one Ant is enough no need for 2 :D Robbies birthday was fun (for those expecting pictures, keep waiting coz I took NONE. Of coz not when I look like how I do atm :S), lots of cheese, which I couldn't eat, wine which I couldn't drink either and long speeches. :D I was just sitting here wondering why on earth I go this blog for, I hardly update it, the bf doesn't read it. Then it striked me as probably a good thing he doesn't. :D Okayy my back is going to kill me any minute now. :( So I'll quickly get to the point and wrap this up. Angela asked me a couple of days ago. Why do I love Ant, as in what do I love about him? So I decided to ask Ant the same question. He replied No comments =). I said you can say no. Then he replied "I love you even though u annoy the shit outta me, I love how u take care of me, how u put up with me, how u encourage me. also that you're the mum of Sophie =)" May not be a good enough response for many but coming from a guy who has only said he love me twice in 2 years. I'm contented. I have come a long way, from being a girl who loved to her her bf say I love you, miss u etc, I've gave up all that for twice in 2 yrs! :( Well, do I say it to him I believe many would wonder. I used too not anymore. Hahah.. I'll get over it don't worry. :D Anyways, the point is.... did I have an answer to the question I asked Ant. The answer is no. Nothing at all. Why? I don't know (like I said thank god he doesn't read my blog ;)) maybe, we've drifted I feel from being partners/lovers to companions/best friends or probably this is what a family life is supposed to be. Simple. Well, thats all for now I guess, I'll come back from being little miss taxi (as Ian calls me) to updating my blogskin and linking up twitter to my blog. I need to go heat up my best friend for my back, the wheat bag! (I've got 3! :D trust me they save my life in more ways than any friend I ever had can.)
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
♥ Sunday, May 10, 2009 @ 9:26 PM
ツ Perhaps
I got the 1st mothers day present from Buttons :D Maybe, I'll put a picture up soon. Its a card and an ornament saying "Mum are like BUTTONS they hold things TOGETHER" in the card she wrote "Dear Mum, thought this would remind you of me. Happy Mother's day! Love, Buttons". :D Very sweet probably the sweetest I've ever got from Ant. Never expected him to bother buying me a present, small n cheap but I'm really touched :) Anywho, I sliced off the tip of my finger while peeling potatoes :( Was a deep cut and I have never cut my finger b4! (not my fault I'm sheltered :P) Well, involved an hr of me sooking n crying and blood dripping everywhere. I'm not used to seeing so much blood on my hand and a piece of my finger hangin by 2mm of skin! :( Its now safely bandaided by Ant who thinks I'm a pre-teen and pobably having 2nd thoughts of how I'm going to look after Buttons. I'd probably cry with her when she cuts her finger :S Ian sent me a link for poems :D There are many but I've only chosen the ones I like :) Beautiful I say. :P Credits: http://www.beyond-the-pale.co.uk/perhaps.htm PERHAPS their 'crimes against humanity'
are nothing compared with
our crimes against nature every day.
PERHAPS respectability
is the worst kind of
corruption. PERHAPS education
acts on the mind of a child
as a virus does
to a computer.
PERHAPS people who miss people
really miss themselves.
PERHAPS deep down
most of us are
shallow graves.
PERHAPS silence is the truest
depth within us.
PERHAPS happiness comes
not when the unfillable hole is blocked
but when the wound is healed by licking. PERHAPS the most addictive video-game is
sex.
PERHAPS Life is
Death masturbating.
PERHAPS testosterone
has wrecked a million
times more lives than heroin.
PERHAPS the most destructive drug
is work.
PERHAPS the object of Democracy
is to ensure that everyone
practises
'decently'
the same hypocrisy.
PERHAPS sex is silly -
though sometimes it seems
majestic.
PERHAPS Never
is where most
people live.
PERHAPS words corrupt
everything they seem
to describe.
PERHAPS even the brightest
of us do not know
what to do with
our intelligence.
PERHAPS
to call someone 'negative'
is a fairly negative thing to do.
PERHAPS our minds are ruled by stories,
and perhaps every story is false.
PERHAPS more love is involved
in planting trees
than 'having sex'. PERHAPS the more that humans achieve
the emptier they become.
PERHAPS life is
the cheapest thing on the planet.
PERHAPS memories
are the scabs of consciousness.
PERHAPS truth
is something more lost
than gained.
PERHAPS the secret of life
is to hate it
and be happy. PERHAPS death is the greatest gift to the living. PERHAPS housework
is better done in the dark:
it's so much easier
and leaves the day free
for sleep or the tending of plants.
PERHAPS
the same is not so true for sex.
PERHAPS depression
is a trick
of consciousness which
we take too seriously.
PERHAPS marriage
is an early symptom
of senility.
PERHAPS only through grief
will happiness emerge.
PERHAPS true intellectuals
have no friends.
PERHAPS
life is a foreign language.
PERHAPS
death is a smile.
PERHAPS Western democracy
is the dictatorship
of hypocrisy.
PERHAPS money makes no-one happy
because it is only a means
to the impossible satisfaction
of infantile desires.
PERHAPS
happiness is unconsciousness,
and the nearest thing to happiness
is an erotic dream.
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
♥ Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 11:21 PM
ツ Broken
Yet another emo post warning :D Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump... <3 I saw her today. :D I was happy to see her unfortunately, happiness never last too long. The half hearted smile wasn't able to mask. The disappointed more than a facade. My tears for joy soon overwhelmed by tears of sadness. The truth hurt. A assurance was just a facade. The words cut thru me like a knife. I felt like everything was a mistake. Like life was just making a fool out of me. Perhaps, it is only telling me somethings are not meant to be. To you: I realized it really didn't matter what it is I thought it did but when I saw it I knew it didn't matter. Sorry it matters so much to u Sorry if ur life doesn't turn out as it should be Whether u stay or leave I will love her still the same.
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
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♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 3:41 PM
ツ Love
Sorry for the lack of post :D I'm still waiting on my dearest designer Angela to give me a completed blog skin. :S Of coz my life hasn't been all that exciting either. If you've got me on facebook and am close enough to me you'd probably see the ultrasound pictures of my Sophie dearest on there. Okayy let me recap, as far as exciting goes, we went to ballarat one weekend. (I seriously don't even remember which weekend it was) :S We stayed in a caravan park with Ants dad, gf n Kyle. He's a funny man. Soooo freaking similiar to Ant even though they haven't seen or lived with each other for ages. Temprement, mood, mannerism, everything (the arrogance, laziness, moodiness and grumpiness etc), should I say thank god to genetics or bad luck buddy, I wonder. Anywho, someone pls remind me one Ant is enough no need for 2 :D Robbies birthday was fun (for those expecting pictures, keep waiting coz I took NONE. Of coz not when I look like how I do atm :S), lots of cheese, which I couldn't eat, wine which I couldn't drink either and long speeches. :D I was just sitting here wondering why on earth I go this blog for, I hardly update it, the bf doesn't read it. Then it striked me as probably a good thing he doesn't. :D Okayy my back is going to kill me any minute now. :( So I'll quickly get to the point and wrap this up. Angela asked me a couple of days ago. Why do I love Ant, as in what do I love about him? So I decided to ask Ant the same question. He replied No comments =). I said you can say no. Then he replied "I love you even though u annoy the shit outta me, I love how u take care of me, how u put up with me, how u encourage me. also that you're the mum of Sophie =)" May not be a good enough response for many but coming from a guy who has only said he love me twice in 2 years. I'm contented. I have come a long way, from being a girl who loved to her her bf say I love you, miss u etc, I've gave up all that for twice in 2 yrs! :( Well, do I say it to him I believe many would wonder. I used too not anymore. Hahah.. I'll get over it don't worry. :D Anyways, the point is.... did I have an answer to the question I asked Ant. The answer is no. Nothing at all. Why? I don't know (like I said thank god he doesn't read my blog ;)) maybe, we've drifted I feel from being partners/lovers to companions/best friends or probably this is what a family life is supposed to be. Simple. Well, thats all for now I guess, I'll come back from being little miss taxi (as Ian calls me) to updating my blogskin and linking up twitter to my blog. I need to go heat up my best friend for my back, the wheat bag! (I've got 3! :D trust me they save my life in more ways than any friend I ever had can.)
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
♥ Sunday, May 10, 2009 @ 9:26 PM
ツ Perhaps
I got the 1st mothers day present from Buttons :D Maybe, I'll put a picture up soon. Its a card and an ornament saying "Mum are like BUTTONS they hold things TOGETHER" in the card she wrote "Dear Mum, thought this would remind you of me. Happy Mother's day! Love, Buttons". :D Very sweet probably the sweetest I've ever got from Ant. Never expected him to bother buying me a present, small n cheap but I'm really touched :) Anywho, I sliced off the tip of my finger while peeling potatoes :( Was a deep cut and I have never cut my finger b4! (not my fault I'm sheltered :P) Well, involved an hr of me sooking n crying and blood dripping everywhere. I'm not used to seeing so much blood on my hand and a piece of my finger hangin by 2mm of skin! :( Its now safely bandaided by Ant who thinks I'm a pre-teen and pobably having 2nd thoughts of how I'm going to look after Buttons. I'd probably cry with her when she cuts her finger :S Ian sent me a link for poems :D There are many but I've only chosen the ones I like :) Beautiful I say. :P Credits: http://www.beyond-the-pale.co.uk/perhaps.htm PERHAPS their 'crimes against humanity'
are nothing compared with
our crimes against nature every day.
PERHAPS respectability
is the worst kind of
corruption. PERHAPS education
acts on the mind of a child
as a virus does
to a computer.
PERHAPS people who miss people
really miss themselves.
PERHAPS deep down
most of us are
shallow graves.
PERHAPS silence is the truest
depth within us.
PERHAPS happiness comes
not when the unfillable hole is blocked
but when the wound is healed by licking. PERHAPS the most addictive video-game is
sex.
PERHAPS Life is
Death masturbating.
PERHAPS testosterone
has wrecked a million
times more lives than heroin.
PERHAPS the most destructive drug
is work.
PERHAPS the object of Democracy
is to ensure that everyone
practises
'decently'
the same hypocrisy.
PERHAPS sex is silly -
though sometimes it seems
majestic.
PERHAPS Never
is where most
people live.
PERHAPS words corrupt
everything they seem
to describe.
PERHAPS even the brightest
of us do not know
what to do with
our intelligence.
PERHAPS
to call someone 'negative'
is a fairly negative thing to do.
PERHAPS our minds are ruled by stories,
and perhaps every story is false.
PERHAPS more love is involved
in planting trees
than 'having sex'. PERHAPS the more that humans achieve
the emptier they become.
PERHAPS life is
the cheapest thing on the planet.
PERHAPS memories
are the scabs of consciousness.
PERHAPS truth
is something more lost
than gained.
PERHAPS the secret of life
is to hate it
and be happy. PERHAPS death is the greatest gift to the living. PERHAPS housework
is better done in the dark:
it's so much easier
and leaves the day free
for sleep or the tending of plants.
PERHAPS
the same is not so true for sex.
PERHAPS depression
is a trick
of consciousness which
we take too seriously.
PERHAPS marriage
is an early symptom
of senility.
PERHAPS only through grief
will happiness emerge.
PERHAPS true intellectuals
have no friends.
PERHAPS
life is a foreign language.
PERHAPS
death is a smile.
PERHAPS Western democracy
is the dictatorship
of hypocrisy.
PERHAPS money makes no-one happy
because it is only a means
to the impossible satisfaction
of infantile desires.
PERHAPS
happiness is unconsciousness,
and the nearest thing to happiness
is an erotic dream.
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
♥ Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 11:21 PM
ツ Broken
Yet another emo post warning :D Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump... <3 I saw her today. :D I was happy to see her unfortunately, happiness never last too long. The half hearted smile wasn't able to mask. The disappointed more than a facade. My tears for joy soon overwhelmed by tears of sadness. The truth hurt. A assurance was just a facade. The words cut thru me like a knife. I felt like everything was a mistake. Like life was just making a fool out of me. Perhaps, it is only telling me somethings are not meant to be. To you: I realized it really didn't matter what it is I thought it did but when I saw it I knew it didn't matter. Sorry it matters so much to u Sorry if ur life doesn't turn out as it should be Whether u stay or leave I will love her still the same.
` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine
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