I found 2 stretch marks today! :( OMG I'm seriously devastated! Ant would probably see it and think I'm ugly as compared to the other hot girls out there and break up with me. Its a high possiblity trust me!

I'm ugly.
I'm fat.
I've got stretch marks.
I'm not good enough.
4 perfectly good reasons to break up with me.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

I'm just not good enough.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

I'm back! :D Well, I felt like I had to be back because my dearest Angela put so much effort into my blogskin. Now is all customized and pretty and I love it! :D

Buttons is 8mths now. Just 1 more month to go. Its all very exciting I really am enjoying this pregnancy to the max. Especially feeling her move and hiccup! hahaha Oh but waking up 5x everynight to go to the toilet can get abit over the top for me no wonder I'm always tired. I guess its just a preparation for when the babys born and moms get no sleep. All is well for her, the last checkup last week, she was 2.2kg and had long legs! haha Wanted to get a picture for Ant but all I got was her tiny little pair of hands :)

My sisters 21st is in 10 days! I still haven't found her a nice present. :( Not that I've got many options here in Sale anyways. I really need to find her something special since I won't be there. Quite sad I won't be there but I'm sure she'll still have fun coz got family and friends and her beloved Justin there. :D

Buttons has got a ton of clothes. Seriously shes got sooooo much clothes I don't even know where to store them! I've basically got everything she needs except her bassinette, which hasn't arrived and its becoming quite worrying coz she'll have no bed to sleep in!

Had a big recurring blow up with Ant last night. I kept asking myself do I wanna do this, is it worth it. Well, I can't tell for sure, but he's given me his word and I've decided its the last chance. So lets pray he doesn't screw this up for us and himself. I thought of giving up then I look back on the good times we had and think of Buttons and I decided it is worth another shot (I really hope he makes an effort this time). :) So alls good for now. I'm actually very very very sure he'll be an extremely good dad. Not so good partner but I can deal with that, not everyone is perfect. :) Anyways, he said something which I felt was really true. A relationship doesn't exist unless there is a friendship and love. All friendships have their ups and downs and little fights and happy moments. Its quite hard to walk away from everything we've had after all this time. :)

Okayy I've finished 1 cross stitch for Buttons I've got about 10 more to go. Hahaha I'm trying to make a blanket for her which would consist of random cute cross stitches I did put together. Not sure if I'll manage to finish is before shes 20! hahaha I'll try though. Anywho, all those thinking of giving me something a cross stitch pattern book would be nice. :P Hmm... Tatty bear, Lickle Ted, Precious moments, Winnie the Pooh....

Been cooking a fair bit too. I tried cooking laksa and it was actually quite nice. :) I'm going to cook 5 spices chicken wings tonight and also if I can be bothered I'm going to make a pandan cake. :D Successful or not just stay tuned. I know its abit of a shock to all my friends considering I'm quite a pampered child I never really had to do anything for myself coz I always had a maid. Now I'm cooking all these stuff I know Ting, Li and Lin are quite shocked. I'm going to be a mom soon, and I'm in a foreign country all on my own I would need to do something for myself I suppose. :)

Well, thats all folks, I'll be back soon.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

Proud mother of Sophia Rory Ziyi Begbie

I found 2 stretch marks today! :( OMG I'm seriously devastated! Ant would probably see it and think I'm ugly as compared to the other hot girls out there and break up with me. Its a high possiblity trust me!

I'm ugly.
I'm fat.
I've got stretch marks.
I'm not good enough.
4 perfectly good reasons to break up with me.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

I'm just not good enough.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

I'm back! :D Well, I felt like I had to be back because my dearest Angela put so much effort into my blogskin. Now is all customized and pretty and I love it! :D

Buttons is 8mths now. Just 1 more month to go. Its all very exciting I really am enjoying this pregnancy to the max. Especially feeling her move and hiccup! hahaha Oh but waking up 5x everynight to go to the toilet can get abit over the top for me no wonder I'm always tired. I guess its just a preparation for when the babys born and moms get no sleep. All is well for her, the last checkup last week, she was 2.2kg and had long legs! haha Wanted to get a picture for Ant but all I got was her tiny little pair of hands :)

My sisters 21st is in 10 days! I still haven't found her a nice present. :( Not that I've got many options here in Sale anyways. I really need to find her something special since I won't be there. Quite sad I won't be there but I'm sure she'll still have fun coz got family and friends and her beloved Justin there. :D

Buttons has got a ton of clothes. Seriously shes got sooooo much clothes I don't even know where to store them! I've basically got everything she needs except her bassinette, which hasn't arrived and its becoming quite worrying coz she'll have no bed to sleep in!

Had a big recurring blow up with Ant last night. I kept asking myself do I wanna do this, is it worth it. Well, I can't tell for sure, but he's given me his word and I've decided its the last chance. So lets pray he doesn't screw this up for us and himself. I thought of giving up then I look back on the good times we had and think of Buttons and I decided it is worth another shot (I really hope he makes an effort this time). :) So alls good for now. I'm actually very very very sure he'll be an extremely good dad. Not so good partner but I can deal with that, not everyone is perfect. :) Anyways, he said something which I felt was really true. A relationship doesn't exist unless there is a friendship and love. All friendships have their ups and downs and little fights and happy moments. Its quite hard to walk away from everything we've had after all this time. :)

Okayy I've finished 1 cross stitch for Buttons I've got about 10 more to go. Hahaha I'm trying to make a blanket for her which would consist of random cute cross stitches I did put together. Not sure if I'll manage to finish is before shes 20! hahaha I'll try though. Anywho, all those thinking of giving me something a cross stitch pattern book would be nice. :P Hmm... Tatty bear, Lickle Ted, Precious moments, Winnie the Pooh....

Been cooking a fair bit too. I tried cooking laksa and it was actually quite nice. :) I'm going to cook 5 spices chicken wings tonight and also if I can be bothered I'm going to make a pandan cake. :D Successful or not just stay tuned. I know its abit of a shock to all my friends considering I'm quite a pampered child I never really had to do anything for myself coz I always had a maid. Now I'm cooking all these stuff I know Ting, Li and Lin are quite shocked. I'm going to be a mom soon, and I'm in a foreign country all on my own I would need to do something for myself I suppose. :)

Well, thats all folks, I'll be back soon.

` and i love you more everyday || rachel alystine

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